I feel I’m pretty good about recognizing when a transformation has taken place…this one happened right before my eyes.
Today I was sitting in my living room doing some energy clearing with my friend. I was aware I was mad about a number of things and wanted to clear through whatever was causing me to feel angry. Anyone would have known I was reacting. They would have ‘heard’ the anger in the words I was using to explain how I was feeling.
My living room faces a school ground and ball park area. The city workers were busy mowing the lawn and whipper snipping the grass along the fence, etc. When I first started talking in my session about what was making me mad, I looked across the street and the city worker on the riding lawn mower went over some big pieces of paper that were on the ground. Once those big pieces of paper go through a lawn mower, they turn into lots of little pieces! I noticed the riding lawn mower had a big garbage pail on the front of it. I started to think, ‘what the heck is that garbage pail for if the guy isn’t going to put the garbage in it.’ When I saw that, I wanted to go outside and take a picture of all the little pieces of paper and send that picture to the city complaining about the mess they were making. Keep in mind, I was already mad and was very much aware of the feelings and thoughts that were running through me. I expressed this to my friend who was working with me.
My friend asked me why that bothered me to see that. I said, ‘no one was going to pick up those tiny papers and somehow they would blow across the street, landing up in our yard for me to pick up and put in the garbage.’ Did you notice the words I used…‘no one was going to?’ She cleared so much anger and shared so many points for me to feel the shift in my perception resulting in the shift in my energy. I felt the anger leave. My friend continued to clear the list of things bothering me and within 20 minutes…I kid you not…a city worker came along carrying his big garbage bag and one of those grabber type tools, picking up every little tiny piece of garbage and more. I watched him take the time to get every little piece of paper…you have no idea what was running through my mind in that moment.
Those city workers were awesome messengers for me today. The city worker riding the lawn mower confirmed to me I was angry and the city worker picking up the garbage confirmed the transformation had taken place within myself! Yes, I shared with my friend what had taken place. There was a huge message for both of us.
Now that I’m no longer reacting like I was, I can now see with clarity! I thought about the times I have mowed my own lawn…mowing over big pieces of paper and yes, turning them into little pieces of paper. There are times where I don’t even pick them up! Can you see the learning and growing that hasn’t taken place? What a message for me today. All I can say is I’m very grateful for recognizing my feelings are about me and how I feel, not about complaining what others are or aren’t doing. The Universe was way too perfect in assisting me to walk through my anger. What a gift!
Have you ever experienced something like that yourself?